HEY PEOPLE!!!

hahas. today is SJAB COMPETITION DAY!!!

saw all my nc team running to form a squad. feel the rush of pride. afterall, they are the first team that i mentor for. and they taught me a lot. we always have meetings to discuss their problems. though it was so much work... when i see them all together today, i can smile and tell myself that the effort was worth it. i can finally see them together as a team.


my NC got 5th position though!!!


really happy for them. cause i almost lost the team when something went wrong. they did their best today. i'm really proud.

today, i can finally understand how mdm yixiu felt when our team didn't win.


like mothers, team mentors always want the best for their team. want them to excel. when their team meet problems, mentors like me get worried too. when i see them working together, it just makes me remember about my own team. i felt a self-reproach too. i wonder if...i could have help to stretch their limits further. i wondered...if i've helped the team at all. sense of uncertainty. whether i was a good mentor. sense of guilt. that i didn't see them for competition today. (because i had to go for OTC course at sjab hq...) also...i felt their relief. that competition is finally over.


i wished that i could be a much better mentor. maybe...then, they will really maximise their fullest potentials.

but. i saw my team grew and mature. into a competitor. there no greater joy than this. nurturing leaders. when i see charlene giving instructions today...i sensed that we as instructors did something right. i saw the whole team helping each other. i saw the team going through this FOR each other. and i'm DAMN proud. DAMN DAMN proud.


i think mdm yixiu felt all of these too.