HEY PEEPS!!! i think my blog SUPER missed me. hahas. i missed my blog too... very busy nowadays...jc life is that stressing.. look at my homework list!!!

1. Chemistry tutorial 2
2. Math binomial theorem tutorial
3. CHINESE tutorial
4. Economics case study tutorial
5. Economics project (on market research on donuts..)
6. Chinese project (a MV story)
7. Literature critical review on a text. (in a blog post. 150 word min.)
8. Literature essay (critical appreciation/assessment of a jap anime show)

and mind you, i DON'T procrastinate. so there's many others who seem in a worser situation than me. like ERNEST, WENG and DARYL. Don't even talk about cheng liang. He's a SLACKER. hahas i'll just mug tonight and finish everything up. ooh, i've already finished no. 7. you can go to http://www.literarybeginnings.blogspot.com/ to check out my post!!!

HEY GUYS, check out yvonne's blog too!!! she has a VIDEO of MDM XIE SINGING!!! AAAARGH. it's SUPER hilarious. i don't know why, BUT I'M LAUGHING MY SOCKS OFF!!! TEE HEE. i was thinking of putting it my post. but i decided not to be so nasty in such advertising. so i'll just PROMOTE it.

ANNOUNCEMENT: MJC IS SUPPPPPERRR SADISTIC.
not just the homework. its also the school events and the PE. OMG. while the rest of you are sleeping at home, we are running rounds and rounds around the track. i think i've put on some weight because of all that muscles. they INCREASE number of rounds!!! EEEKKKK!!! the first PE, we girls ran 4 rounds, plus, 1 round warm up. 2nd PE, it was 6 FREAKIN ROUNDS, and 1 round of warm up. not to forget the whole package, 20 PUSH UPS and 10 CRUNCHES after that. i think i'm SUPER fit now. TEE HEE.

guess what? WE're having a ROAD RACE in pasir ris park. 3-4 KM RUN!!!!! ARGH!!! but actually... it's quite fun running now. REALLY!!! i like the wind. HEE.

last night just had a class bbq at my house. OMG. it was quite fun. hahas. imagine 30 JC STUDENTS playing BLIND MICE in my playground. hahas. damn fun. there's a LOT A LOT of food!!! hahas. i've suddenly realize how MACHO i am. I CAN START A FIRE< CAN COOK BBQ food, can climb around monkey bars and chase around. hahas. the rest of the girls cant really do them all. I'm good.

TEE HEE. ernest is a damn lucky guy!!!he goes around making loads of girl friends!!! hahas. so many girls flirting around him... right right???!!!! cackles. eh, he has me to take bus home, EIGHTEEN GIRLS to talk to in class!!!!!! and a WHOLE COLLEGE of girls to look at!!! no wonder rahavan seem to be OGLING around. hee.

hahas. despite all the fun, i was at the edge of breaking. hahas. all that work. plus my parents giving me problem again. sighs. i had 2 DAYS OF BREAKDOWN. hahas. i just felt so tired of everything. i've been working non-stop since the SMC retreat. too many things on my shoulders. so i cracked. For 2 nights i've been crying. and i don't know why. i'm burn out. its always kinda a one-man show. sighs. so i need a day off in sjab to let my mind sort things out. i sound so gun niang now. but its true. in the night, i'm either out in choa chu kang teaching piano, or in some sjab meeting, or in some school meeting. i suddenly felt so frustrated. why am i torturing myself like that? why must i take everything in? why must i always do so much? why must i always clear someone's shit? why am i just filling in for someone?

im so tired.
even i slept for so long today.
so tired.

i'm been holding on to my responsibilities for so long.

while some others can just leave me to do everything.

but i can't quit.
i won't quit.
i still can do more.

it's just...just that...i want a moment, where i can just close my eyes. and worry about nothing. and think about nothing, no one.

can't i just have that? i don't need someone to take my burdens, but i just need a break.
i won't call myself emotionally tired. im not. i still can do a lot of things. i can. i really can...