hahas... i'm just so surprised that i've got so many readers. hahas. its strange that people will really care what i wrote, or what is going on with me. hahas. i think the last post is more of your taste, wee tee. philosophical. i can't imagine i really wrote that... well...
self confidence and over confidence all are drives for people to achieve something. but for me, over confidence can be easily detected. over confidence is bragging. as simple as that. saying something to intimidate others or to boast one self-esteem. may also be due to an inferiority complex. usually, people who brag are the people who are the most insecure people-they lack the self confidence, so they have a NEED to announce that they're good. usually over confidence will lead to failures. but self confidence is something left UNSAID, but actions, behaviour and how you carry yourself can prove self confidence. this is my idea of both of them...
hahas. i try not be so serious. sometimes, thinking and trying to find answers to questions...may be really meaningless. somethings in this world is manned to be unanswered. so wee tee, you must learn how to accept this reality. not all questions will have definite answers. cause we as humans have the limited knowledge.
right. i know people don't really know what i want in life. so they're afraid that i'll make the wrong decision. they are all bugging me because they care. so i'll just listen and hear what make sense. but the thing is that i don't want to be afraid to take a step forward and face the future challenges. Being afraid of failing is failure. i hope you peeps will also not be confined in your choices because of being afraid to try. that's where you can learn through experiences. hopefully, you peeps make a right decision now.
yadayada. i have to start stopping to write like some preacher. HAHA. i'll miss the peeps at jc though. they're super GREAT. hahas. but i've just got to move on. and work harder. hahas. ernest!!! i'm planning to stop going for PAE starting from tuesday. after i've registered. cause...no point going there when i'm not going jc at all. i've decided that i should put this time to good use... like, reading up on my psychology course, taking notes, reading up motivation books. hahas. to prepare myself. shit. than i'll be letting down my college pub. sighs. responsibility? sighs. i think...will i leave? sighs. now rethinking again. they need my help...
AIYOH. i think more deeply first i guess. shucks. i'm supposed to post something in college pub too. die die. i don't think i can leave so early now. sighs. i'll just skip school on some days. SIGHs. so much for finding more time to read up.
BUT, i felt a little more carefree today. like one of the many strings that tie me down is released. hahas. slowly, it will fade away i hope. today a max of 5 HOURS was total freedom. release from thinking of something. hope it will gradually increase as days goes by. i may just forget about my beautiful mistake. hahas. a self coversation. that maybe only jasmine will understand. do you? that's why i've warned myself so hard before falling. and when i fall, i sink too deep. until its hard to forget. i just don't understand how guys do it so well huh, ernest?
finally to share something i've learnt from english lit that stirred my heart...
'Tis better to have loved and lost,
Than never to have loved at all.'
Alfred Lord Tennyson's poem in Memoriam:27
beautiful poem. story unravels in 2 lines. 2 lines that tell a story about people. about a funny thing called love.
hahas. i'm too young to understand it.
can you?
