Today, is probably the day which got me quite mixed up. it was the end of the sjab camp and... yes, one part of me feels the relieve of the camp due to the pressure and also...satisfaction in seeing my cadets performing greatly in their evac... i set out, telling myself to do all things in camp to benefit them...and i just wonder whether did i do a good job or not. sighs. but i've really, really put in A LOT of effort to carry out my responsibility...
one passing comment that i will never forget. wanti tapped me, and said, nice rank you're wearing. sighs. does it look nice? it actually doesn't make much difference for me. but now, it affects how people look at me. yup. cadets got so frightened of me after knowing my rank.i don't like that. sighs. plus, during this entire camp, i feel...SUPER pressurized. because my senior officers are all...sometimes, more or less, demanding. yup. they have high expectations for me... plus, i have to guide along my 2 assistants as they are newbies to the job. plus, i've to report daily to my training officer on daily happenings, progresses, recommendations. plus i had to co-ordinate with East View corp.
hahas. luckily, i had may ling. without her guidance, i think i will lose focus in the camp..dead tired now. yesterday had meeting till 3a.m. than, i had discussion with the training department until 4a.m. then, i have a bunk inspection until 5 plus... so i kinda slept less than an hour last night. yup. i'm gonna rest early...tomorrow i have to go for church camp. sighs. so i will be desserting my blog AGAIN. really tired now...the total hours i slept in a 5day 4 night camp is less than 7 hours. yup. so i look horrible now... have to sleep now so i can look better tomorrow!! hahas.
oh!!! YIPPEE!!!!! just recieved the scholarship edusave award!!! hahas. achieved one of my goals!!! hahas. im really stoic now. can you believe that i can DOZE OFF when i am STANDING with BOTH IF MY EYES WIDE OPEN? i didn't know i had that talent too. hahas.
yawns.
night night!!!
im off to lalalalalala land!!!
hee. if you're lucky, you'll meet me there.