sometimes, i just wished that i could hide myself from the rest of the world who are staring at me.
this is crap. yup. everybody EXPECTS you to like, perform so well in the Os. sighs. with that pressure on, im about to crack. people are like, aiyah...kai xin, she will do well la. she's already scoring. hmph. don't even SAY THAT to me. sighs. it SCARES me. cause im not sure about my results. im SURE that i did my best, but results are something i cant control(thanks to the freaking moderation). i just feel like screaming. hahas. having too many wild thoughts about getting my Os results. im going bonkers soon.
sighs. never mind. today, im resting at home after shopping yesterday... gotta start studying chemistry to refresh my memory on some tinny stuff. not complaining either. i prefer going back to hit the books than to go out shopping AGAIN. its SCARY. the people, the smells, the sweat. hmmm. spending time at home blogging, reading chemistry will be...heaven. hahas.
going to mani plus pedi this sunday with my mum. hahas. she can finally bring me there!!! YIPEE. actually, wished that time will pass more slowly. very soon, it will be end of Os. very very soon, it will be the 13th november. and very very soon...it will be prom. which means the end of me. i don't know whether i have the strength to survive till than. just pray that the lord will guide me in whatever i do.
yup. The road in front of me is clear and distinct. but somehow, my feet does not have the renewed courage to press on forward. knowing that shadows of my past is catching up on me, i feel like i am sinking into depths of pain, troubles and worries. but i know that if i struggled hard enough...i may break free.
hahas. for readers who suddenly don't understand what i am talking about, you MAY finally understand it on the 14th november. sometimes...things don't just go the way i want, but i have the ability to put things right. and i will do it, even though it means tearing my heart into pieces.
hahas. don't bother me. i will be fine soon. nutty little miss is coming your way!!!!!!! CACKLES.
tata!!!